I ridded off ana.  I told myself that i didnt need her and that i could do this alone.  but an entire year has rolled by and i am right back where i started last summer and i am not happy.  Well im 10 lbs lighter but thats nothing.  Ana came back saying “im here to stay bitch” and i am ready.  long weekend means a 3 day 2 day fast and then my parents forcing me to eat but i still have 2 days.  Im going to camp and i am seeing my ex… and if i dont look better this summer than i did 2 years ago he wont regret ignoring me. and i want a boyfriend so badly… all the guys ive dated this year have been total assholes. but most importantly ana will help me find myself again.  Under all of this fat is a confident, hot girl who is funny and sweet and loves life, even if it doesnt love her right now.  I am ready and ana will help me every step of the way. please txt me! i’d love a txt buddy :) my # is 240- 406-8452 and i hv unlimited txts so hit me up :)

of course im going to florida and i will be the ONLY person not in a bikini… y?  BECAUSE MY MOTHER TOLD ME THAT A BIKINI ISNT FLATTERING TO ME. i fucking havent eaten for almost a month and if i run one more fucking mile my legs will fall off. of course im too fat to wear what i want on my own fucking spring break trip. i hate my mother for all of her fucking fat genes. how the fuck am i supposed to fight genetics? jkladsfkl;asdfl;asfdadfgkltubxlz kill me. like actually just fucking kill me. i want to fucking die. this is the worst feeling on the face of the entire planet. i will fucking show her what is becoming to me. skin and bones. hows that for becoming?